The Path of Jacob
I see how this works – that it’s You behind everything.
It’s not just using You to accomplish something physical – it’s using the physical to connect to You.
Help me to not fall into the mentality of selling myself short through chasing small desires.
Help me to raise my faith and clarity higher to serve You with a pure and complete heart.
Help me find my highest joy in serving You with all my heart, all my soul all my might.
Let me find total joy in this. Absolute elation.
This is a winning equation.
This is reality.
This feels right and excites me.
This excites my body and soul and mind and heart and every part of me together in harmony.
This makes my soul dance with my body.
“Esau raised his eyes and saw all that Jacob had with him. He asked Jacob, what did you intend by that whole camp that I met? And Jacob answered, to gain favor in your eyes.”
Esau responded, “I have RAV” – I have plenty, I have abundance – a language implying arrogance and conceit.
And Jacob said, “I have KOL”, I have everything – I have all I need. A language of gratitude and humility.
Both had alot – but each had totally different perspectives on what they had and their relationship to the Source of what they had.
Let the wisdom of this epic encounter really sink into my heart.
We need to first learn what’s best for us, learn what true joy is, learn what our purpose is – and only then can we merit the joy of truly walking the high path because we understand what the high path is. We understand how to relate to the blessings in front of us.
This level takes training and tests of the heart in order to earn. It’s really a never ending process with higher and higher understandings but what else are we using our time here for? To decide on what we think we want and either achieve it or not and allow our happiness to rest on the outcome?
There is a higher path to walk. The path of Jacob.
Yes, there is the concept of serving Hashem for physical purposes and this is a good first step. It is higher than disconnection. It creates some sparks. It’s the next step for many of us from where we are at today. The next step toward the higher path. But there’s also the concept of serving Hashem with no ulterior motive. Simply because we realize that serving Hashem, aligning our heart and soul, actions and intellect, desires and wisdom, is the highest joy of all.
We reach a place of KOL – I have everything that I need right now.
The truth is that Hashem is spoon feeding us every split second. Every breath of air, every sip of water, every blink of an eye, movement of a limb. Our desires are influenced by where we are holding in our life. The sick desire health, the deaf desire hearing, the blind desire sight, the poor man desires money, the thirsty desire water, and the man of excess abundance desires another home, another vacation, another ring of security around his RAV.
This does not end.
When Jacob approached his brother Esau and offered him gifts, Esau said he had RAV, I have abundance – I have more than I need. Jacob said he had KOL, I have all that I need.
More than I need means I don’t need You anymore, I’m good, thanks.
All that I need means thank you for taking care of me yesterday, thank you for taking care of me now and I trust that You and only You will take care of me tomorrow.
It’s a live relationship.
It’s the way of the sages to walk like this.
Not full because of excess abundance, full because of happiness with their lot at this moment. The only lack is lack of faith that everything is coming from You and everything is exactly how You want it to be for my best interest at this moment.
When you make yourself small you shake off the chains of entitlement. You don’t need so much to feel full. You shake off the need for things to be a certain way – for your happiness to be dependent on an outcome.
When you realize that you are but dust and ashes, everything that comes to you is a gift that you are grateful for.
Being grateful is a very welcoming vibration to emit to the Giver who created the world to give of the highest levels of joy.
I have all I need right now. All I need is You.