Raise your head child



Raise your head child

Well this week’s post was a tough act to follow.

I can tell you that the blog and social media lit up as heart felt love and directed props poured through the universe. Sometimes the most sane wisdom comes from the darkest moments.

When you open a channel to a constricted pipe you experience an explosion of repressed expression – and when you hear a man in constriction expose his deepest darkest truths, it draws in our attention. We can relate in our own way. We feel proud because it represents raw and honest expression which is a very ventilating concept to those of us trapped in a world of self imposed boundaries and limitations. It’s fresh air that strikes a familiar nerve deep within anyone on the growth path of conscious living. Because on the path, at every turn, we meet our adversary whose purpose is to hold us down and guard us from reaching our potential – from raising our heads upwards.

Many have come out of the woodwork expressing their own darkness this week – and leaving them on the curb left to dry without another dose is just cruel. So here we go.

Nasso et Rosh– RAISE THE HEADS.

Even when we are knocked down, cycling through the mental obstacles we are facing – even when we feel banished from connection with the Source – especially then, we lift our heads.

We show up to service with open arms, open vessels, and plead to the Source like a loved child for mercy – for redemption – for stronger faith.

We raise our weary heads to the Source above, in pure honesty, humility and with the realization that every single thing comes from the Source – there is nothing but the Source above – all apparent duality and multiplicity comes from the One Source.

At service, on that bench, dressed up and surrounded with brothers and sisters – melting away from the grip of the week – with your list of wants and needs and requests for mercy on yourself and your loved ones – raising your head in authentic expression at that moment is a prerequisite.

Nasso, my bar mitzvah parsha, is about lifting my head to Hashem – expressing my desire and love of Hashem and requesting that He help me win this war. Only Hashem can rescue me as there is nothing other than Hashem.


“When Moses arrived at the tent of Meeting to speak with Him, he heard the Voice speaking to him from atop the Cover that was upon the Ark of the testimony, from between the two Chrubim, and He spoke to him.”

– Numbers 7:89

That same communication is going on today, every moment. The delight of experiencing the Divine Presence is the salvation. That’s winning the war. All other delights are fleeting. Shabbos Nasso gives us the opportunity to raise our heads and break free from our limitations – to re-establish our connection with the Source of our experience.

Our eternal soul is a giver and our temporary body is a taker. The joy experienced through giving is immeasurably greater than the pleasure of receiving. Soul connection is the desire to give, manifested.

The soul is an extension of the Source and the Source is endless blessing.

Soul connection is the experience of joy and sweetness in life. The sweetness of wisdom, connection and giving.

Lifting my head upwards means being in a constant state of gratitude for what appears to be going well and what appears to not be.

As the Baal HaSulam so eloquently put it:

“Eternal life is when you are ready to live every moment of your life forever”

Shabbat Shalom.



Raise your head child

Time keeps on slipping, slipping, into the future


Time keeps on slipping, slipping, into the future.

First of all, keep in mind that human beings, because of the free will we were created with, have the ability to rise above the Angels – the ability to partake of the highest levels of perception of the Source – for eternity. We also have the ability to waste away this opportunity, caught up in the muck and mire of temporary materiality.

This lifetime – the limited number of years and months and minutes in front of us – which the sages compare to the shadow of a bird flying over a mountain – is the time we’ve been allotted to achieve our rectification and stake out our eternal proximity to the light Source. It is brought down that one moment in the world to come is more intense than all the experiences of pleasure during our lifetime. While there’s no real way to describe what hasn’t yet been shown to us, that fine wine that the Source is saving for that special occasion, “what no eye has seen” – from all I’ve learned about it, I expect it to be rather enjoyable, to say the least. It brings goose bumps just thinking about what’s in store for us – this “reward” for achieving alignment with the Source, which happens to be, on its own, the most enjoyable and psychologically advantageous way to walk through life, anyway. A gift for receiving and living a gift. Sounds like a fair proposition to me. A win win.

This lifetime is like having a minute to run into the Kings treasury and take as many jewels and gold coins as we can amass for retirement. A shopping spree for eternal bliss.

Is it really worth wasting another minute – especially not knowing if it could be our last?

If any of this speaks to you, like it does to me, we owe it to ourselves to immediately withdraw from nonsense and dedicate full time effort to maintaining consciousness. To establish a system to attain our objectives and to measure our progress obsessively. To cling to those who live and share the wisdom and not let go.

To cease all destructive habits and actions and avoid wasting time on anything that’s temporary. In other words, to detach as quickly as possible from the suckers game. You can wean off your destructive behaviors and actions, or go cold turkey – whatever works best for you. There are no pockets in shrouds. It’s similar advice to what you’d give to a crack head in a dumpster.

The sages of the past used to count their days. Always keeping a tally of how many days they have lived.

Doing the math at 40, I have lived 480 months so far. If I make it to 120, I’ll have 960 more. Average life expectancy for a male is 84 – that’s 528 more months, 15,840 days till the box, on average.

We see our kids if we are lucky about 3 hours a day until they become teenagers, and then for a few hours on weekends and then occasional holidays. With a 10 year old child, until they turn 16, that’s six years at 3 hours a day = just 6,480 precious hours of face time until they are off to their own world.

We may only see a grandparent or a parent for a few more years, months or days.

We have a finite amount of time to connect with our loved ones – to accomplish our rectification – to achieve our potential – to evolve.

This is the level of consciousness required to establish appropriate value for the time left in your life.

Especially when we see patterns of unconsciousness play out every day. Like if we consistently react in a certain way to a child because of our own issues, and feel remorse as soon as they walk out the door. This pattern of behavior can haunt a person, not only later in life on the rocking chair, but as soon as the door shuts – if left on auto pilot. Taking in the gravity of this ticking clock can snap us into a state of applied consciousness strong enough to break out of patterns of reactivity. This is called growth. And it’s what we are here for. Not to play out our pre-patterned character role until a wake-up call presents itself.

This applies to our relationship with the Source as well. We realize that we cannot afford another prayer session without deep intention and connection, as we do not know how many more we will have. Transforming our human nature into a partner with the soul, to accomplish their collective mission, is the purpose – and coincidentally –  the most enjoyable and rewarding way to move through this experience.

A life with Emunah (an innate conviction, a perception of truth that transcends, rather than evades, reason) is a psychologically more advantageous path because we’ve made room for seemingly negative set-backs – we’ve bought into the reality that all comes from the Source, all is under His direct and personal supervision and all comes from higher mercy. This transforms an otherwise painful experience into a necessary part of our development process.

We can even learn to love some seemingly far out situations. For example, it’s taught that shaming someone in public is worse than killing them. Yet, if someone shames us, we should not respond, but rather look at it as a gift, an opportunity to accept a “death blow” to our ego – a relatively easy way out of accumulated karmic consequences intended for us. In fact, we learn that the sages did this intentionally, to bring themselves public shame, to proactively shatter their false connections to their ego. They were using this life as a tool to achieve something much greater than just the here and now. And by living this way, they transformed the “now” into the greatest possible experience and opportunity.

And now for a bit of advice from the sages on how best to spend your time…

A good start is to mold your thoughts, actions, intentions and spoken words from the perspective of looking back upon your life post expiration – in a way, to live out your desired eulogy. To treat others like you want to be treated. To only focus on the good points in others, and to recognize that everything is coming from the Source. To immerse yourself in the wisdom of the Torah – the guidebook to life -and accept upon yourself the Divine structure – the spiritual circuitry connectors – known as the Mitzvot. To sensitize your awareness of the Source and to walk in His ways now, to the extent that when the veil is lifted you will experience as little a shock as possible between your temporary physical identifications and your eternal soul. To carry a constant dialogue with the Source of all life experiences. To return to your true nature by accounting for your actions and intentions daily. To believe in yourself, that you were created with something unique to develop and share that no one else has – and that you will never be fulfilled until you trust, explore and live that wide. Be you. There’s no time like the present. If not now, when?

Ein of Milvado! (There is nothing but You, Hashem)



Time keeps on slipping, slipping, into the future