All My Heart and All My Soul
“From there you will seek Hashem, your God, and you will find Him, if you search for Him with all your heart and all your soul.” – Deuteronomy 4:29 Va’Eschanan
He is here.
24/7 here and ready to be found — if we search for Him with all our heart and all our soul.
He said we will find Him – and to me, finding Him means me perceiving Him more than just knowing He is there. To me, this means the more heart and soul I put into searching for Him, the more I will find Him.
I believe this is true.
That through searching with all my heart and soul I find Hashem more and more. And since I believe this, and have seen it over and over again – how can I waste my time not searching for Him? How can I not be working on summoning up more and more desire from my heart and soul to search and find, search and find?
As we set sail into Elul with Rosh Hashana just around the bend I’m thinking of these past few weekly Torah portions. It’s crystal clear that the Source wants us to embody and live His commandments so that He can bless us in full measure.
And when we stray – like electric fences guarding the perimeter of the Garden of Eden, He blesses us with “curses” to wake us up, shake us free from unconsciousness and steer us back to serving Him with joy only so that we can receive more and more of His blessings. Our greatest joy.
The Torah and the holy nation are one. And the Torah lays out the blueprint for our lives.
We are to refine ourselves through the wisdom of the Torah – to purify ourselves so that we can be most fit to receive the highest levels of joy intended for us – because the Source created this world to give us the highest levels of joy – and we were created with a huge capacity to attract and house those high levels of joy intended for us.
The Torah is wisdom. The interpretations of the Torah by the prophets and sages have distilled the deeper meaning contained within the Torah into digestible vapors of wisdom for us. As we delve deeper into the Torah and grow in its ways we develop higher perceptions of its holy words and the Source’s intention – all so that we can practice in deeper ways, purifying our vessels to receive deeper and deeper levels of joy from the Source.
He said He won’t abandon us in Va’eschanan. That means that He will never abandon us.
And He told us how to find Him. By searching with all our heart and all our soul.
It’s time to start searching with all of my heart and all of my soul.
אני לדודי ודודי לי (I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is mine)
Shabbat Shalom & Chodesh Tov.